The Journey of an Asthmatic

Asthma made me realize how precious it is to breathe again one more time.  

Every morning in usual days, when I gasp for air, I thank God for the ability to breathe normally and for having a day without having to cough and sniff for such a thousand times. I thank Him for the days that I never have to wheeze so as to put that annoying machine onto my nose and mouth, or to take medicines for days. But those struggle-free days—I seem to forget them whenever I come face-to- face with one of my adversaries , which I was battling with for many years now, Asthma.

If you happen to know the feeling of heavily panting, having clogged nose, cough and cold all at the same time, you may happen to comprehend with my distress. I have Allergic Rhinitis that makes it worse. Storming my nose first, the first phase of my asthma attacks lasts for a whole day. It usually starts with a runny nose and itchy eyes that is caused by allergens.  Such allergens include smoke, dust, animal hair, powdered stuff, pollen, even strong perfume among other things. Next thing is that dry cough that if gets worse,  stays for days.

I only know two kinds of Asthma. The one that strikes fast and leaves fast, and the one that lets you endure for at least a couple of days—that’s my guy.

Time slows down when you have this kind of ailment. A day feels like two or even three since sufferers struggle to sleep.  One  can barely leave his room for a reason of  awful weakness  and pants for just trying to go somewhere else.  Given that, Asthma sufferers could not make daily household chores happen, and even suspend  one’s schedule for work or school —it would double the trigger if the patients would not find time to rest.

Not being able to go to school, or not seeing my friends and loved ones during those days is somewhat  depressing. I thank God that I have my family that knows my distress.  They genuinely care and love me; even sacrificing their own strength, time, money , effort or their own health for my sake.

Most of us say not to admit the thought of having great problems, instead claim the greatness of God and His power.  There’s nothing wrong about that.  In fact, that’s absolutely the perfect thing to do. But in my case, it feels like the enemy is staring at me right in the eyes. Asthma still gets me down and depressed.  My asthma could have ruined my future but God rescues me. Yet, I am sure that God will give me a breakthrough.

What I am saying is, I accept the fact that my adversary is great. I accept the fact that I have no control over it. I accept the fact that this infirmity is gigantic for me. But you know what? The greatest, reliable fact that I believe among those facts is that GOD IS GREATER. He is able to do immeasurably far more than we could possibly ask, think or imagine. He is stronger than any sickness , disease or infirmity. Believing and dwelling on those things with all of my heart and mind, I gain new strength to persevere, fight and to refuse to be defeated .

Our weaknesses and the greatness of our walls and mountains, do not make God less stronger. In fact, the greatness of our harms and struggles exponentially magnify our perspetive of God’s power, strength and ability over all of it.

When a cough or cold is healed by God, we barely notice it. But when God heals cancer, we praise Him greatly for it. Why? Because we know that cancer is great. We know that cancer is lethal. We know that cancer is a real and deadly threat.

I consider asthma as a high wall that I could not overcome.  Maybe for now.  I asked God for healing for many times but still haven’t received it.  I asked Him as well for the reason that I have asthma,  like most people ask, ‘Why me?’ I ask myself, “ Is my faith insufficient? Is it defective? Have I failed God at trusting Him?”

Many people, when faced at life’s hard situations , ask the same questions. Most of the times, we only want the best things from God. We demand them from Him. But when the times come that we need to be tested or challenged, we become angry and question Him about His love for us.When Job’s wife told him to curse God after all that has happened to him, he said,”…Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity?”(2:10). There is a reason why I have asthma. I know there is. One day, I will be able to see clearly. I don’t have the right to question Him about His will. I know that He knows what He does and He has a perfect plan. Jeremiah 29:11 keeps ringing in my ears, “ For I know the plans I have for you, plans for welfare and not for calamity , plans to give you hope and a future.”

Right now, this is my mountain—and with my own ability, I don’t know how to overcome it—I couldn’t help myself. I’m helpless and  I need rescuing from God. One day (sooner), at the time of deliverance, I would crush this mountain from above and everybody would know that my God is the God who really heals!

Indeed, I don’t  love this, but I never hated it either. I just take it as a challenge to my faith like that of Job,  Abraham, Moses, Daniel, Joseph, David, Paul and most especially Jesus; believing that the testing of the faith produces endurance.

There is a purpose. I will not stop believing that one day, God will deliver me. I will not stop believing that God will strip my asthma away from me. I just can’t wait!   Let me share with you my life verse:

                And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may dwell in me.  Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.         2 Corinthians 12:9-10                                            

Today, the world calls me asthmatic. Forever, the Lord calls me His own—  new and whole. To God be the glory!

A Heart of Praise


Thank You for Your sufficient grace

Every time I come to seek Your face

In all my life and all my days

I desire to always give you praise

I am nothing but a short-lived grass

My life may wither just as fast

But in You, my Rock, I give my trust

The One whose love for me’s so vast

Today, I can say that I am exceedingly blessed

For God has given me His very best

With His righteousness, I have been dressed

My heart’s now filled with peace and rest

Forever I am not the same

For in my heart a Savior came

In He came to take the pain

The sun’s forever there even through the rain!

Changes for the Better

Changes happen for betterment, for empowerment. At times, we take change as a threat. But If we desire to change the world, we must first change for ourselves–little by little, one step  at a time.  Bend. flow. turn. For the better.

As for this blog, SOARLIKEEAGLE, a similar change will be healthier. It’s not about changing the whole perspective and mission of the blog as others might think. A new blog name seems more fit for the content and feel of the blog. So I present to you, the Journey of a Hopeful!

What do you guys think?

Since the day our eyes first met

I have been dreaming of you and me

Things and dates, I now forget

For all your smiles filled my memory

Why does it feel so right?

When all others say its inappropriate

Its getting really hard to fight

I’m starting to feel inaccurate

I feel a bit awkward and uneasy

But not really bitter and unhappy

These dreams of you and me

Keep struggling for actuality

Is love really this surreal?

Both high and wide, so deep yet so simple

the bliss I feel makes the wounds to heal

Every time you’re beside me my world trembles


Change your heart to change the world


To change the world. That is the calling of SOARLIKEEAGLE, my one and only beloved blog. It is true. One can change the world by beginning with himself. Renew the mind, purify the heart, change yourself before attempting to change the world. As the song said, “If you wanna make the world a better place, take a look at yourself then make the change” -Man in the Mirror by Michael Jackson.

Changing the world, in its own terms, may not be so easy. But I think, it may not be as hard as well. Not impossible neither unreachable. If every man and every woman will change for the better, maybe thus the world will change. If everyone will make an impact even to only two or three persons in his lifetime, maybe that two or three people will make an impact also to two or three people. We don’t know. But that’s better than doing nothing. Remember, nothing is impossible to him who believes.


This world is like a mountain.
Your echo depends on you.
If you scream good things,
the world will give it back.
If you scream bad things,
the world will give it back.
Even if someone speaks badly about you,
speak well about him.
Change your heart to change the world

~ Shams Tabrizi
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To my Everdearest,


Hey! Do you know that I am so in love with you? Do you know that I am deeply and greatly in love with you? From even the first of firsts I have loved and adored you. You are the apple of my eye. I love gazing at you day after day, each and every moment of your life. My thoughts toward you are countless. You are precious. You are wonderful!

Has anyone told you that you’re unloved, alone, useless or pathetic? I tell you, you are not. How do I know? I know all things! and I know you. For I, with my own bare hands, have made, formed and created you. You are not a mistake. No, never! You are a super masterpiece. You are my treasure! Never believe those who tell you that you’re ugly or unattractive because I, in my own image, have molded you, fearfully and wonderfully. I delight in you!


By this time, perhaps you already know who I am. I want to lavish this love on you. I want you to know me; who I am and what I feel for you, so please continue reading.

Some people think of me as a fabrication of the mind. Others say that I’m just a person and some acknowledge my existence but deems of me as distant and unfriendly, snobbish or even deaf. I am not. I even hear your heart. Happiness, excitement, feelings of warmth and love, all of your sobs and wails, your losses, hurts and disappointments, even your fears, suspicions and worries. It doesn’t mean that when you don’t hear or see me, I am not there. I have always been by your side–waiting for you to notice and know me. Always able and available; with open arms, I will accept you as you are.

Feel your heart. Each beat comes from my hand. I am your life-giver. The air you breathe and the food you eat are all for you to have life. I sustain you and give you strength. Every good thing that you see around you comes from me. I know all that you need and  will provide for them because I care for you. Even the best of your future is in my hand. A future that has been always filled with hope.

I am a friend. I am a brother. I am the Perfect Father. I want to comfort you in all of your troubles. I want to fill you with peace and joy. I desire to make you stronger and stronger through the trials that you face. I am faithful. I will never leave you nor forsake you. I will never let you go. Unlike people, I am always, ever-true to my promises. Are you weary? Come to me and I will give you calming and comforting rest; for I am kind and I am gracious. I am good. I will never stop doing good to you. I am who I am. I am love itself. I love you more than you could ever know. These words are not enough to describe how much I care and adore you.


My child, I hurt when I see you hurting. Every time you cry, I always feel your pain. That is why I always desired and longed to be with you. I can give you joy in the midst of your trials. Cling to me and you will feel peace like you never, ever felt before. These things I can give you, if you would just let me.

Child, I can show great things if you would call to me. Seek me with all of your heart and you will find me. Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. I can do all things and I am able to do immeasurably far more than you could possibly imagine.

I love you and I will never stop loving you. I died on the cross in your place, not wanting anyone to perish but for all to come to repentance. To tell you that I am not counting your shortcomings;  and to save you from the bondage of sin. I love you this much. I gave up my life so that you and I could be reconciled.

If you will accept my gift of salvation, nothing will ever separate you from my love again.

I am your Father and will always be your Father.

P.S. I am waiting for you.


With an Everlasting Love,

Daddy, Almighty God